Thursday, May 22, 2014

Smoothie crazie..

We have a new craze now! Smoothie and Noah loves it too. The best way where we can squeeze in the 5 a day of fruits and vege in his diet. 

We are blessed and truly grateful for having the ability of eat healthy and right. We are given amanah from Allah on our body, so have to take good care of them as much as we can. We are what we eat so trying to be make it as organic where we can as well. Bottoms up everybody! 

Noah is drinking organic blueberries, pineapple, organic cucumber and organic apricot yogurt. All blend with ice. Yummy and he is loving it! 

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Waiting patiently for the party

Last weekend, a safari themed party, beautifully decorated and organised by the Mummy and Daddy of the gorgeous birthday girl who turned 7. Noah waiting patiently for other guests to come. We were blessed by getting a sneak preview before it all started. Well done guys for throwing a great party. The little guests and grown ups were happy (and fully fed..burp!) 

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Wonderful news today

Alhamdulillah.. no words could describe the feeling I had when my mom told me Ayah is out of OT and everything is fine. I took big sigh of relief.. feeling all grateful and happy mixed together. 

This is one of those moments where it sucks to be away from your family. Not only you are missing the trying times, but you are also missing birthdays, anniversaries, celebrations.. the good times. 

Missing you Malaysia. In the meantime, take of my family and friends for me. 

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Life changing event

This is one of the events which happened since the blog last updated.

Alhamdulillah.. I found a new job and I have been there for almost 1 and half year now. Love the new company, my colleagues and the culture. I am happy, feeling grateful and blessed.

This was truly a revelation for me after the agony of being unemployed for 9 months. After being kicked out from previous company so easily and swiftly. Allah has answered my prayers and put me in a better position. 

It was a remarkable journey for me and my family. A true life changing experience. Found out who my true friends were and who were just there during the good times. The latter were running away when they had just taken a whiff of the smoke without even seeing the fire.

This indeed a blessing in disguise and makes me appreciate the family and friends who stuck and supported me through thick or thin. 

I don't think by just keep saying Alhamdulillah for the rest of myself would be enough. It taught me to think about others and help those in need as well. Made me realised that your time in need could come and hit you just about any time. It was such a humbling experience.  Allah did say

[108:1-2] We have blessed you with many a bounty. Therefore, you shall pray to your Lord (Salat), and give to charity.

True.. He has indeed provided us with much of his bounty. InsyaAllah.. may we always strive to be better a person especially in the eyes of our Creator. 

Another year has passed

It was my birthday last weekend. I am turning 27.. yet again! A lot has happened to us in the past one year.

Noah has also grown. Time never sits still. He is turning 6 this year and looking forward to it. He is the only one in the family excited to turn a year older. I guess the same for us when we were  kids. Although, I didn't remember having birthday parties when I was a child although I did know that come 6th April, you should expect receiving a nice present from your parents. Plus a nice treat of having family meal outside, which was very rare for us then. We got treated with Pizza Hut, KFC and at that time, these were fancy!! How you treasure those moments.

Now, Noah is asking us to throw a party and he already have a list of friends from school he is inviting. His birthday is not until July! We had a Hot Wheels battle force 5 theme last year. We had fun organising it. For this year? Hmm...  we are not too sure whether to throw any do for him... I am thinking, perhaps it is better we splash the money on a nice birthday present and give some of them to charity. Parties are not cheap but having a party also a good reason for a get together! So we shall see how it goes, cause Noah is still demanding for one.

My birthday! Didn't go as plan. Will get back to that. I got a nice little surprise from Muzzy. A watch that I like which I mentioned to him few years back and he remembers!! Awww... !

Sometimes I don't know why, he kept on wasting his money on me on all these expensive gifts. I wish he just save the money for rainy days but he said it was not a waste, because it was for me. I guess because 'I am worth it!' (while flicking hair l'oreal style *swept of my feet* again). But hei! I shouldn't be complaining! I am very very thankful that I have such wonderful and generous husband.

Like for our 10 years anniversary, he bought me a 0.8 carat diamond solitaire on platinum ring. I will not divulge the cost of it here but enough to say, I should have it insured. Same with the watch by the way. As for me.. I can't help to be the worrier...  whether we will have enough, education fund, insurance, pension blah blah... about not having enough savings for our future. Worry about money is not a great thing. I have gone through that moment in my life where I lost my job with nothing, so that experience makes me more conscious.

But come to think about it, these wonderful things he is buying for me holds their value. Worst come to worst we can always re sell them. Yikes! Hope that day never come but you never know.

Back to my birthday weekend. We were supposed to have a nice treat, at this halal steak place Westfield, Shepherds Bush with Muzzy, Noah and one of our extended family/friends, the Jollys. The Jollys couldn't make it because they had false alarm that they were going into labour.. although two days later there were in labour and a beautiful baby boy was born on 9th April 2014! Congrats guys! Enjoy parenthood!

So we ended being just us three.. Muzzy, Noah and me. We were on the way there and Noah felt sick and vomited in the car. We had to turn back, clean the car and Noah, since the vomit was all over his booster seat, his clothes and the car! We decided to stay in until he felt better. Good call I have to say, because he kept on vomiting about 3 times after that. Poor baby..

So Muz, being his lovely self, went to get a take away from our fav restaurant Ooodle Noodle and we eat our heart content. Alhamdulillah... It was still a memorable night and I got to spend it with my two favourite lovely boys. The weekend was great too.. meeting some friends on Friday night, hung out with my bff Ulazi who came to visit from Malaysia while staying in Central london where everything was nearby!!

Yup.. I have not written for so long and as I said, a lot has happened to us in the past one year. I guess there will be separate entries for the others. This blog needs reviving anyway, since we have not been contributing for ages. Hopefully more to come. Of course not for you.. you you.. one reader out there.. but more for to document certain milestones in our lives. This is .. at the end of the day... the story of us.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

If I were to start over..

Being unemployed and having so much free time in your life is supposed to be the time where you can reflect on what exactly you want to do with your life.

If you can redo things all over again, what do you want to be? My answer will be, to be employed again ASAP.

What is wrong with me? I feel talentless.

The only thing that I know I am good at is being part of a corporate organisation again. I have been trained for 10 years and have always being recognised as good and outstanding employee. If I can be good at my job, and whatever jobs that was thrown to me, I must be good at something else outside a corporate world? no?

If I were to start over, I would become a ...... . Err... nope, I get nothing and it is frustrating!

It is not about winning, it is about participation

People always say, Allah will not task upon you a test that He thinks you wouldn't able to cope. It is up to you to find the strength within you to rise to this challenge. 

I am going forward with the tribunal against my past employer. I am still sad that things had to end up this way. I had a good 10 years, discounting the last 3 months I was there. However, I need to do this for myself, not to win, but to see whether I have it in me to fight for myself. 

Like somebody said about the team GB or you can even say the same to the Malaysian olympian athletes... 'it is not about the winning, it is the participation'. As long as you know and clear that you have tried the best that you can. 

This is so unlike 'the Secret'.. you have to believe that you will win. What can I say, as much as I want to be all believing and confident... I am a realist. I believe what they have done to me was wrong and deceitful but it will be tough to prove it in court. I have no black and white on the last conversation I had with my ex CEO when he told me that the KL management called the shots. I don't have in black and white of what my direct superior told me that he had tried as much as he could for me to have my job, but everything that he did seem to hit a brick wall. (Then again on a hindsight, I doubt he did anything to help because he is now going against me on the witness stand and denying all those things he has said to me). Perhaps, he he just want to look good in front of the management because he did say, that he would like to keep his job very much and from what he was seeing, being in that company, you will lose your job if you go against the EVP or some Datuk/Dato'. 

I suspect he was referring that statement to me. According to the CEO, my resignation has backfired to him and management actually didn't like it. (Of course he denied saying that in the Tribunal response.) However, I have not gone crazy to make up my own stories. I think I still don't know what have I done to the 'Datuk' for him to be pissed at me. I went all the way, asking blessings from management, HR, asking for options and follow the instructions to the T. I did ask him in an email but of course, no replies. 

Oh well... what done is done. Just need to look forward. Counting down for September to go through the trial and here's goes nothing. I believe, no downside, but just upside. If I don't win, I am going away with a once in a lifetime experience. Cheers!

Monday, March 12, 2012


Noah asked me this morning whether we are going home. I asked him where is home. He said at school, turn left. He meant the Robinscroft Mews.

He had 2 years of his 3 years life there. So that place is the home that he remembers. I then showed him another picture. I told him, this will be our new home. We shall be at Willow Walk, Orpington.

He then chose his room out of the floor plan and asked whether his toys will be there. Mater? Kapow (lightning McQueen)? I said to him, yes... They all will be there.

We are waiting anxiously for the vendor to complete the necessary documentation so we can move on. More like move into, into our new place where we can call home. This time, no more skimpy and fussy landlords, no more check-out inventories.

We will the proud owners to the home, sharing together with our kind 'investors'! Wish us luck...

Yup... This was taken at Robinscroft Mews. See the packing in action!! 

Friday, March 9, 2012

Why did you leave your last job?

The toughest question in the interview for me is 'why did you leave your last job?'

I did not leave, I was made to leave. That sucks! Though it was under pretext of redundancy but in my case, I was the only one being made redundant! So can't help but felt like I got fired!

Me..? Looking for a job now. How is it going? I applied to many posts, but being called to two interviews which I have yet to receive any feedbacks. So no news is good news for now. It is not that easy to find the right job in this country... but maybe because I always worried that it would not be easy. So all these could just be a self-fulfilling prophecy?

Yes... I need to have more patience. It can't happen overnight. I am glad that at least I was called for interviews. At least they have found me interesting and the experience anecdotes on my CV have some values.

Redundancy? Yup.. I had so many questions that were left unanswered. First they said I could stay on in London if home country management was fine with it. I went to see them, they said I could do that by resigning from home country's office. I was ecstatic that there was such option until I was told that my resignation was backfired. Shortly after that, I received my redundancy notice but the story had changed to KL had nothing to do with it. Though on my last day, they put the blame on KL, again. Then, on my appeal decision, it was all just coincidental that the dates matched with my resignation from the home country's office, in KL.

I felt I had enough with all these stupid charades! I am going to go with my gut feeling that it was KL all along and somebody here do not dare to go against them.

I read an article saying, it is your fault that you lost your job. Yeah, could be.. I should have listened to my instinct. I was being naive to think it was an option and put my belief on the management. To think about it again, I had always known that it was a problem for them to accept the fact that I requested to stay on, not to go back to KL as they have instructed. It was just they could not say it to my face. I should have read between the lines. I suppose, if I was to pay enough attention, I would be able to see it on their faces and hear the anxiousness in their voices though the words that fell from their mouths were favourable. But it was too late to act. I was not given a chance to retract my resignation because, I was told at that time that KL had nothing to do with the decision... until at that last moment. However, when it came to the time to put on paper, the story had changed again.

On the hindsight, some of them said, I should have secured a job here, then only resign. Again, this is because of my stupidity, I should have known not to trust the words of so called leaders. Need to be backed up in writing!! Lesson is well learnt, mucho gracias!

I need to move on from what happened in the past. I have to say, disappointment, frustration, victimisation, anger...  were the feelings that I had when they said that my redundancy was confirmed. They do not even think that I have family to take care off. Felt unwanted and unvalued after all these years serving them. While I was having all these feelings towards them, to them... I was a nobody. Business went on like usual when I left. I was just a number in the books. Nothing else.

However, I realised, I can't control what they have done to me. I can't change it either. All that I can control is how I feel about it. I no longer feel vengeful or angry. I feel challenged. I feel that I am strong and can survive no matter what are the odds. I feel that I do not need them. I am capable and able to determine where I am going next. It is a matter of choice. I am going to try this route, to stay in this country and see what she can offer me. If it end up with nothing much, I could always venture elsewhere.

Though it has not been easy since I was asked to leave my job. Sometimes there are days where that evil worries crept into me questioning, do we have enough? Will we able to survive? But I have to say, so far we are actually fine. We are not starved. We can still afford roof on our head. We are able to put clothes on ourselves. Our family and friends are there to give us support and help. Maybe, family holiday is not part of the equation right now but what's more important... we feel genuinely blessed. Now, I feel much closer to Allah. I pray to him relentlessly hoping things will turnaround so I am able to provide again, to my family, to pay off my debts, to be independent again.

Soon, it is coming... I have to remind this to myself every single day. Universe is unfolding its page one by one. I have to follow it in order, can't skip a page or a chapter no matter how desperate I wanted to. I will need to keep faith that somewhere in that book, there is a page that read, I got my dream job. For now, I have to keep persevere and put my faith in Him, for He the Most Gracious, Merciful and Most Knowing. InsyaAllah.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

All around Scotland

We decided to look for snow. Instead of going to Europe continent, we decided to go to Scotland. It is a breathtaking, beautiful country.. What more, the trip put my mind at ease. A distraction from reality. Spending quality time with beloved family.. Alhamdulillah..